The avoidable dark days, well, we will see.
Growing “up” as a girl I watched a T.V. show on Nickelodeon called Are You Afraid of the Dark.
But… I still haven’t actually grown up.
Rather, I’m growing down.
Down into my Self. Down into my deepest places beneath the surface and into my… darkness.
And I’m not afraid of the dark, I’m afraid.
After all, it’s darkness we emerge from and darkness we return to.
From womb to tomb. Or urn or sky burial vultures or... does it matter?
As a matter of fact, 'matter' stems from the Latin ‘mater’ which means… MOTHER.
Applaud the almighty womb!
But do we really need to dissect language to realize this obvious truth?
Well, let's see. How are we as a humanity currently valuing mothers? And how are we valuing our shared mother: Earth?
I'd say yes, yes we absolutely do need to dissect our current language to look inside for truth...Where it's dark.
True secrets and the mysteries are not meant to be hidden in the dark, away from the light of awareness. This disempowers and disintegrates individuals and perpetuates fear, violence and victimization.
Rather, true secrets and the mysteries are the dark. Our own connection with darkness.
Embracing the dark empowers, integrates, illuminates and liberates.
Wanna see? And real-eyes the truth?
Alright we'll adventure-in to darkness for light of awareness on what matters.
But reader beware!
Seeking truth is like pulling a thread on your sweater. Watch it unravel, you'll soon be naked.
Our language is filled with riddles in this paradox of light and dark.
And truly our own truth depends on our own point of view based on our unique perspective.
And our own unique perspective depends on our own unique collection of memories and experiences interpreted from our body and mind within various environments at various times within various circumstances.
Ok back to my point about darkness.
In my growing down point of view (which is verrry limited based on my own unique perspective, privilege and personality), there are two types of darknesses going on:
Unavoidable Darkness and Avoidable Darkness
Unavoidable Darkness is…
Winter Soul-stice (if you’re in the Northern Hemisphere)
Growing in utero
Unconscious and Subconscious Self = Shadow
Facing our Shadow Self for Power-With Dynamics
Avoidable Darkness is…
Avoiding the Void… or running from our Shadow
Hiding from our Shadow
Directed by our Shadow
Projecting our Shadow
Repressing our Shadow
Disintegration from our Shadow
Power-over or Power-under Dynamics
Are you in the dark about the dark? Ok I'll call upon metaphors to help explain the inexplicable.
This excerpt illustrates the play between Unavoidable and Avoidable Darkness. Imagine the sandstorm as the 'shadow':
“Sometimes fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing directions. You change direction but the sandstorm chases you. You turn again, but the storm adjusts. Over and over you play this out, like some ominous dance with death just before dawn. Why? Because this storm isn't something that blew in from far away, something that has nothing to do with you. This storm is you. Something inside of you. So all you can do is give in to it, step right inside the storm, closing your eyes and plugging up your ears so the sand doesn't get in, and walk through it, step by step. There's no sun there, no moon, no direction, no sense of time. Just fine white sand swirling up into the sky like pulverized bones. That's the kind of sandstorm you need to imagine.
And you really will have to make it through that violent, metaphysical, symbolic storm. No matter how metaphysical or symbolic it might be, make no mistake about it: it will cut through flesh like a thousand razor blades. People will bleed there, and you will bleed too. Hot, red blood. You'll catch that blood in your hands, your own blood and the blood of others.
And once the storm is over you won't remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won't be the same person who walked in. That's what this storm's all about.” -Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore
What I see in my growing down point of view is a collective storm happening- racially, sexually, religiously, politically, environmentally, socially- and we can either individually choose to run from it, or face our own shitstorm and do the work to integrate and transform ourselves. We're in this together, alone.
"The only hope for humankind is in the transformation of the individual." -Krishnamurti
Because if I, you, we, stand on the sidelines of this storm and expect everyone else to move through it for us, well, then the Avoidable Darkness will take over and eventually we'll get smacked into the Unavoidable Darkness anyway.
We individually have the gumption to face our shadow by collectively supporting each other go through it alone, together.
To see, smell and take care of our shit. Clean up our own mess and come out the storm a more realized, whole person.
The more we spotlight our own shadow with courage, true secrets are let out. Clarity equals power. And we real-eyes we're not alone in our unique experiences.
And from clarity our individual and collective choices become more conscious, creative, and compassionate and no longer driven by the repressive or reactive unconscious shadow play.
This has a rippling effect.
Each time we individually empower-up ourselves by being radically transparent with what's happening in the dark (the unseen) by bringing it to light (the seen), we release the dams of shame and the power imbalances in all our relationships. Every small moment of sincerity and clarity count on the path to liberation. I will shamelessly reveal my personal 2016 Shadow Dances in another post.
When the dams of shame are released in our bodies and our voices, we open to our creative and free flowing expression of our unique genius that already lives within each of us.
So what's the most effective and efficient way of releasing our dams of shame to release our creative genius?
By honoring the very source from which ALL human creation emerged:
the dark womb
Even if we don't have a healthy relationship with our own birth mother, or if she's no longer alive, or if we never met her, or all the various traumas that come with childbirth, we can individually choose to heal ourselves. We can only truly heal ourselves by going into our own darkness. By releasing blame for our suffering and choosing forgiveness.
The Universal wounds of abandonment, shame and betrayal can be traced down to the first breath of life where we're cut from our source of darkness inside the womb.
It doesn't matter if we like or dislike your mother, agree or disagree. What matters is respecting the source.
By respecting and appreciating the most powerful, inevitable, raw source of pure potential power that exists inside a woman’s womb- we will evolve our consciouness to find a balance between the masculine and feminine powers. Between our right and left hemispheres of our brain. Integrating the light and the dark. The yin and the yang. The ida and pingala channels. The sun and moon. The inner and outer. And so on.
This massive shitstorm is a response to these power imbalances. And why our humanity has evolved in this way is largely due to:
Avoidable Darkness authors that only tell part of the whole story to intentionally keep humanity confused, in the dark and away from the light of empowerment and freedom within.
They say in the beginning was the word.
Words are birthed from the womb of nothing.
If we didn't have the space b e t w e e n these letters, how could we possibly read? And now more than ever we're called to read between the lines.
It's time to re-rite history to include herstory. Ourstory. The whole story.
Time for the void, the womb, the no-thingness of dark matter to reclaim her worthy throne alongside the masculine power to birth golden miracles. To share the true story of creation where the feminine is once again honored in her full emptiness.
The chalice deep within a woman’s body is the Holy Grail. The quest for liberation or realization or salvation or whatever you want to call the end of suffering lies deep within each of us.
Let's hear it from the man of this artificially-lit season himself:
‘The Kingdom of Heaven lies within you.’ –Jesus
Seems pretty obvious to me. 'Christ All' mighty is the Crystal within each of us.
And to hit this home, let's read the Sioux Story on Creation:
The Creator gathered all of Creation and said: "I want to hide something from the humans until they are ready for it. It is the realization that they create their own reality."
The Eagle said: "Give it to me, I will take it to the moon."
The Creator said: "No. One day they will go there and find it."
The Salmon said: "I will bury it on the bottom of the ocean."
The Creator said: "No. They will go there too."
The Buffalo said: "I will bury it on the Great Plains."
The Creator said: "They will cut into the skin of the Earth and find it even there."
Grandmother Mole, who lives in the breast of Mother Earth and who has no physical eyes but sees with spiritual eyes, said: "Put it inside of them."
And the Creator said: "It is done.”
No matter what your beliefs are, as long as we’re human can we all agree we were indeed created inside a dark, dark womb?
Yes I understand it takes two. Or sometimes multiple. Or perhaps even an entire medical team to artificially plant the seed of life.
And even if you don't believe in science (if this is true for you, I imagine it's because you've been confused by words authored by an authority on the Avoidable Dark side) there are facts about the process of human conception.
So, the 'fact' is, unlike many myths of sperm forcefully penetrating the egg after making the loooong journey and racing to win- what actually happens is the egg is also moving toward the sperm. The two meet, and with persistent, shared stimulus they fuse together.
Fuse = opposites coming together to create new life; empowerment and freedom
Confuse = words written by conmen to divide opposites; disempowerment and oppression
This is the secret of the mysteries. By bringing our secrets out into the light. By embracing all of who we are, the light and the dark, we create new miracles.
May we all celebrate our own miracle of life by honoring the miracle of life that lies within each of us. Our light AND our dark matters.
Happy New Year.